While I wait...

Hey guess whose blogging twice in one week? I decided that since my CV can only take so much being attached to over 50 emails, I might as well do something else I love, and that's communicate to you - whoever you are.  South Africa, no, Jo'burg is quite hot these days but our evenings which some of us look forward to the most, are spoilt by rain.  Listen to me or rather read about me (lol) talking about weather.  Well, that's because its one of the only things I can talk about right now.  I'm not going to complain though, because when it rains it pours but when its over there'll be a rainbow right? (I'm trying hard to convince myself).  It still is poring in my life.  Floods, houses breaking down, cars flowing away with the strong water flows, you name it, it's happening. 

Something always stays the same though.  And that's the continuous support from friends, lil sister and boyfriend.  So for that I am grateful.  But something also keeps me coming day in, day out, to the Internet Cafe to continue searching for a home away from home.  The young lady that works here even asked me if I "love computers", my first inclination was to ignore her but the goodness in me replied " No, they bore me to death!".  It's her duty to find out what it is I'm busy Googling for an hour or so a day and something tells me she knows what it is (snooping at its best). Anyway.

I will blog (I hope) when I get my job.  Okay, I just said that because I had nothing else to say.  Anyway, again.  So you see rather than me attempt to blog about being a PR Intern whereas I'm done being one but as I said in previous posts, Im an Intern in life, I'd rather just not bother hey? Well not really.  I love writing, I love talking and well this screen, these words, help me vent.  It's no hate chat room though for my beloved family (raises eyebrows) but its just me being pretty (can't compromise on that now can we?) and being me! :)

So while I wait, I will write ( if I can afford to).  We don't want to break the bank and delve deep into our savings for an automobile just so we can blog now do we? *no answer* Wow, even my alter ego, Malindi, has left me high and dry, am I really that boring? No I'm not, I'll just phone my boyfriend who'll be happy to hear from me to prove that I'm not boring.  Not unless he's asleep and sleeping is better than being with me *screams) I AM BORING - heck, it'll pass.

It always does, doesn't it? (Staring at my reflection on the computer screen).

The Struggle Continues

I'm getting really bad at this blog thing.  It has been ages since my last blog post and I've been such a disappointment to myself.  Oh well not to worry I don't Tweet and I don't Facebok a lot either and all because one small device whose importance I  ddn't realise till now, has died on me - yes, my Blackberry.  Life without her/him is not the same even my BBM friend think I've died and been buried (It's not going to be that easy getting rid of me guys and gals - lol).

However, life has continued and still continues.  My younger sister (@Zeefashionista) has come and gone to the J&B Met (death by jealousy) and my galfriend gave birth to our long awaited nephew, Oratile, my other galfriend started a new job, and well, I'm still unemployed.  Yes, I have no job folks, which means a screeching halt on my dreams, possibilities of Loubotin's Rollerboy shoes being sold out the world over and boredom.  Oh not forgetting the new roles I've taken on of being chef, cleaner, child minder and all of that good stuff *rolls eyes*.  Life for me has been life at its best - NOT!  But at least while I feel like I'm going down a slippery slope, those around me are kinda, sorta realising their dreams - don't forget me yol, I am so going to ride on your coat tails. 

My time at home is not so bad though, as its given the opportunity to spend time with my beloved boyfriend *blush*..

The last 5 mins pop up just "popped" up on my screen at the Internet Cafe now, so guess I have to go...

Aluta Continua...

Happy New Year

I know what you're thinking, yes it has been forever since my last post.  And I do feel guilty so please do not rub it in.  Since my last post, I've seen the new year, I've enjoyed two weeks of December and I am officially unemployed.  Lindi, the PR Intern is no more! *mixed feelings* .  My last day at work which I looked forward to for the whole year came and went without me even blogging about it and boy do I feel like such a flop! I mean I built suspense and horror and had (hopefully) had my viewers awaiting to hear how the fireworks went off at work, how I was thrown a farewell party, given a farewell gift and how I told my boss off in a drunken stupor... Well none of that happened.  Instead my departure was just like my arrival, quiet and with people partially interested.  Well I might be exaggerating just a tad.  Some where sad to see me leave, some sort of declared feelings for me and well others acted as if they'd see me again today.  Looking at my whole internship from a more "sober" mind seems like the mature thing to do.  I mean I learnt what I could, did the best with what I had, stuck it out and now its over like everything else in life especially the world cup (some people are still awaiting the business opportunities and are now stuck in debt with houses stupidly decorated permanently with painted flags - bummer!)

It's been 3 days into the new year and it feels like 30 days.  I haven't seen anything that I'm partially interested in jobwise and well, life's is calmer, at least for me.  The transition into 2011 was very un-eventful for me this year, which I think is good as its given me a more "introspected" look at life.  And as the cliche or whatever it is goes: The more things change, the more they stay the same, I will never rest my fashion-hungry and loving self until the day I'm officially laid to rest.  And I hate to admit it but the fact that my BlackBerry has stopped working on me, has made me very lonely and isolated from my Twitter, Facebook and especially my BBM mates.  I feel like such a douche for not being able to share friendly tips and words and update statuses - now I'm just a walking status update, beware if its the BBM angry smiley that's on my forehead today - lol.

Well, here goes another year, here comes my car, my frequent online trips to Milan and continued success in all my endevours...

Happy New Year folks...

Untitled.

I just came in from a long lunch with one of our favourite clients.  It was lovely.  I'm a bit tired today and highly "sensitive" because well, it's the beginning of new things for me.  This blog post is untitled because I can't find a title for the whirlwind of emotions that I've gone through this week.  Up until the past Monday, all I felt was joy and exhilaration at the thought of me finally putting away my black clothes, looking forward to introducing moderate amounts of colour into my wardrobe but most importantly, hanging up my PR Intern gloves.  As I said goodbye to our client and she asked me what it is I wanted to do or was going to do - I realised that I had no idea.


The fact that I don't have a job yet does contribute to my not knowing whether I'm coming or going after this, but I've also realised that I am quite a complex soul (yes friends, family and boyfriend - I admit).  A big part of me wants to work, make money (to achieve those dreams, yes the one's I mentioned before - wink)  but a huge part of me wants to be able to work and use my God-given talents which will make work ten times less hectic and be just a way to make money doing what I love doing.  But those type of things happen in the movies don't they? I'm so unmotivated at the moment, that sitting home and doing nothing for a year seems like a great option for me.  In fact let me start over, using the word "unmotivated" is not good because I'm highly motivated just very confused.  The break I am about to take couldn't have come at a better time and boy am I grateful for it.

This way I will work towards finding exactly what I plan to do to achieve my dreams.  I might be relaxed physically but my brain has mental marathons of how I'm going to get my Mini Cooper S next year, a house two years after that, furniture in between all of that, a gorgeous closet while achieving all of that and still be happy and satisfied with what I do.  Then there are more dreams to be realised.  Having another qualification, being a member of parliament and owning my own entertainment company.  And even though I can't put time-limits or expectations - I still do.  All of the above should be achieved in the next seven years.  I know -ridiculous, not.

They (I've always wondered who 'they' are - would love to meet them) say the first step in change is realising that there is a problem, well I say the first step in achieving your dreams is having them.

My road is all mapped out now, I must just get a good pair of  takkies (any excuse to shop) and run it.

Yours Sincerely... My heart

I'm done clearing up my desk.  It's all ready for the next PR Intern who will "make their mark" at this place.  I've been quite emotional today, whether its because a long, tiresome journey has come to an end or I am simply PMSing, I don't know.  All I know is that I've been balling like a baby this whole morning - well I know the major reason but the minor one is only a mystery.  Throughout my 8 blogs posts, I have not mentioned the people close to me who are special additions to my already colourful life.  The reason being, I did not want to offend any of them by pasting their names on the Internet for anyone to access - they all have Facebook so already their names are on the Internet - anyway!  I've got a circle or rather a square of girlfriends which I have known for more than 10 years, others less, whom I share most things with.  Then of course I have family, a Mom and a Dad, a brother and two sisters AND I am an aunt to 2 nieces and a nephew *so proud*.  I also then have people I refer to as "my boys" well because they are my boys.  And then I have - I don't know what to call him without sounding corny - so I'll just stick to -  my boyfriend.

Everyone I've mentioned or forgot (sorry) is an integral part of my life.  They've helped mould the sassy lady I am today and I have learnt loads from each of them.  Being a very sociable person, I thank God I have so many people around me, He knows I would die if I was lonely.  At this point in time, if I was reading this blog (not be the author) I would be curious about the boyfriend, so just in case you are, let me try and use words to describe err, our err, companionship (really for lack of a better word - I don't want to sound corny remember ;) ).   My relationship is nine months old and as I always say (to myself) if it were a baby, it would be due this month.  And its been unreal, unbelievable, beautiful, magnificent, lovely, joyous - *sigh* I said I couldn't describe it in words *sigh again*.  A few moments ago I mentioned that I know the major reason behind my tears this morning - and it is the state of euphoria I am in.  I am humbled by the fact that I am living things that I thought only happened in the movies.  I've always known that I am somewhat lovable and deserve love but you know when you only guess how something would feel?  Well that's exactly how it was.  I guessed that being in love meant a,b or c or when someone loves you, you'd feel like 1,2 or 3.

My guesses could NEVER come close to the way it REALLY is (guess that's why their called guesses - there I go guessing again - lol).  Anyway, right now I do not mind dying because I lived or am living my purpose - to love and be loved. I might be, okay no, I am a lover of the finest things in life but I am someone, if it were possible, would only live off the love and its inherent qualities but -  a girl's gotta eat and of course shop.  So the way things are on Earth I will never change, in the same breath, Earthly things will never change the "things" in my heart.  I am usually quite concise in my writing, but upon skimming through what I've written, it doesn't make sense.  And this is because the melodies of the heart do not make sense to the mind, they are better understood by other hearts (WOW! I said that? I'm really corny now) - oh well.

With that said, my hearts' melody plays on... and the heart which understands it - sings along.
Now I understand why these feelings are described as three words - you honestly can't find more!


I. Love. You.

That's all.

T.G.I.F

It's my last Friday here.  And because its not my last day, I am not celebrating - yet.  52 Fridays later and I am still alive - WOW!  So I decided this morning when I was getting dressed, that what better way to show my excitement, than by dressing in a manner which I had decided to "save" while being an Intern.  Well, I look good (if I have to say so myself), what with my boss giving me the "dirty" eye.  Ha! (Flips braids back) I am not the little Intern, who didn't speak much, wore the ugly clothes and the only noise she made was her keyboard afterall!  She's surprised, I know it - What Mrs X, your daughter can't afford this dress or rather wouldn't dream of buying it? I know.  Fashion is not for the faint hearted and I am not saying she is.

Enough with the bitchiness.

I had blogger's block today I must admit.  I didn't know what on God's beautiful Earth I'd blog about, so I did what I do best these days - job hunt.  The pain of seeing a job that might match your qualifications/experience, only to find they pay a stipend and not a salary is horrific.  I mean really now, who wants to study and work and put together portfolios and go through hell everyday just so she can make enough to shop in shops that are filled with clothes, no aircon, smells of cheap plastic and when you have to pay - well you can imagine.  I put my foot down now, I want shoes with red-soles ala Louboutins.  Trust me I'm willing to work for them but I'm also willing to be PAID for that work.

So I'll probably be "jobless" until January (a colleague advised me of this again today *sadface*) but from then on its either you're with me or against ;).

One hour till lunchtime, drinks and snacks at 16h00, Thank God Its Friday.

So, tell us about yourself?

Seeing as my job these days is looking for a job, I bet you my blog title today will be the question I will have to answer more than five times.  It's one of the most difficult questions to answer because we all never really delve deep enough to find out who we are.  I mean while you're doing some "soul-searching" people are taking the job that should be yours, there's the side-walk sale in Sandton which is only productive if you go the first week and, well, life goes on.  This same life that we are all trying to make the most out of.  This year I had to try and make the most out of being an Intern, a student, a sister, a friend, an aunt and of course a girlfriend - my favourite role.  This was helluva difficult considering that each role has different demands from one person - somebody please pass me my Superman cape already - you try your utmost best to meet each demand to the best of you abilities.  Even typing that seems too much, imagine living it.  I know what people think "at least you didn't have to be a Mom as well.  At least you have a,b and c to keep you going."  At least nothing.  Reason I'm saying this is because people tend to think we all have a spare life somewhere which will come out when we've exhausted the one we're living now or will come and save the day and "at least" give rest to the other.  No sir! No turning back, no returning to highschool, no taking back those words, no reversing your Matric Dance and choosing a better dress, no waiting for the 75% sale to come again - it will, next season.

So no matter how trivial it seems to one person/people to juggle what I called my hectic life this year, for me it was hard (pulls out the chairs and tea-set for a pity party).  So when asked the question "So, tell us about yourself?" I will feel like dying because you had to be by my side to have a front-row view of who I really am.  But I will not, of course, answer my interviewer like that now will I?  Instead I hope my outfit firstly, says majority of the story, my CV backs it up, God lends a hand and the rest will be history, history because who will resist such a combo - a combo equivalent to a McDonald's Quarter Pounder Deluxe when you're slap-bang in the middle of a diet and you realise its not working and you're starving!

As usual I spend 2-3 hours everyday just job-hunting and today I got an email from a friend which read " It'll be hard for you to find something right now, but I will look out for you.  In the meantime, do not give up". My immediate reaction was shock and horror as I saw my bank refuse the financing of my Mini Cooper S 2007 model in Magnesium blue, as I saw myself never setting foot in Eastgate Mall again and as I saw myself wearing a head-scarf and pyjamas at 2 in the afternoon and sitting in the sun waiting for it to set.  Just the thought makes me want to throw up the croissant I had for breakfast - even that will be a "once upon a time" thing!

I know I will find a job, I know I will drive my Mini, I know I will have a wardrobe "to die for darling!" and I know that this time next year I will be writing about how me, the PR Intern, plans to furniture the house I will be buying the year after that.  How do I know? Well because I know everything - lol. I know because I am destined for higher places...

Let me prepare for my interviews now, and find a way of how I plan on telling people about myself.