I'm done clearing up my desk. It's all ready for the next PR Intern who will "make their mark" at this place. I've been quite emotional today, whether its because a long, tiresome journey has come to an end or I am simply PMSing, I don't know. All I know is that I've been balling like a baby this whole morning - well I know the major reason but the minor one is only a mystery. Throughout my 8 blogs posts, I have not mentioned the people close to me who are special additions to my already colourful life. The reason being, I did not want to offend any of them by pasting their names on the Internet for anyone to access - they all have Facebook so already their names are on the Internet - anyway! I've got a circle or rather a square of girlfriends which I have known for more than 10 years, others less, whom I share most things with. Then of course I have family, a Mom and a Dad, a brother and two sisters AND I am an aunt to 2 nieces and a nephew *so proud*. I also then have people I refer to as "my boys" well because they are my boys. And then I have - I don't know what to call him without sounding corny - so I'll just stick to - my boyfriend.
Everyone I've mentioned or forgot (sorry) is an integral part of my life. They've helped mould the sassy lady I am today and I have learnt loads from each of them. Being a very sociable person, I thank God I have so many people around me, He knows I would die if I was lonely. At this point in time, if I was reading this blog (not be the author) I would be curious about the boyfriend, so just in case you are, let me try and use words to describe err, our err, companionship (really for lack of a better word - I don't want to sound corny remember ;) ). My relationship is nine months old and as I always say (to myself) if it were a baby, it would be due this month. And its been unreal, unbelievable, beautiful, magnificent, lovely, joyous - *sigh* I said I couldn't describe it in words *sigh again*. A few moments ago I mentioned that I know the major reason behind my tears this morning - and it is the state of euphoria I am in. I am humbled by the fact that I am living things that I thought only happened in the movies. I've always known that I am somewhat lovable and deserve love but you know when you only guess how something would feel? Well that's exactly how it was. I guessed that being in love meant a,b or c or when someone loves you, you'd feel like 1,2 or 3.
My guesses could NEVER come close to the way it REALLY is (guess that's why their called guesses - there I go guessing again - lol). Anyway, right now I do not mind dying because I lived or am living my purpose - to love and be loved. I might be, okay no, I am a lover of the finest things in life but I am someone, if it were possible, would only live off the love and its inherent qualities but - a girl's gotta eat and of course shop. So the way things are on Earth I will never change, in the same breath, Earthly things will never change the "things" in my heart. I am usually quite concise in my writing, but upon skimming through what I've written, it doesn't make sense. And this is because the melodies of the heart do not make sense to the mind, they are better understood by other hearts (WOW! I said that? I'm really corny now) - oh well.
With that said, my hearts' melody plays on... and the heart which understands it - sings along.
Now I understand why these feelings are described as three words - you honestly can't find more!
I. Love. You.
That's all.
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